ABC-Baby, You, and Me

So in love with this baby!

2010-01-22T11:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I had a bunch of appointments, starting with our Fetal echo. Baby is naughty! Wouldn't turn the right way, so we were sent home with no results. We have to go back in a month. I guess baby decided to make it up to us, because our second appointment ( an ultrasound) was awesome! We got cute pics, and a video, and baby put on a major show for us. I could feel him/her kicking against the u/s wand, and it was cracking us all up. I posted a pic, which is a little blurry, but you can clearly see it's a human baby at this point. We get to relax for a couple weeks before our next round of appointments, and then it's back to the grind. We are almost done clearing out the baby's room, and soon we will have the carpet steam cleaned, and order the crib! I absolutely can't wait. I feel closer to this baby every day. I've already watched the u/s video 4 times, and even recorded it in my phone. It makes me tear up every time I see my little one jumping around in there. I love how the picture looks like baby is sitting underneath a star. =)

A little background....

2010-01-04T10:40:00.000-08:00

I just realized that I kinda skipped some info about how/when I got pregnant. When I left off, I was preparing to try some treatments to help the bleeding. Soo...here's how it went down. I stopped the Metformin when I was hospitalized for the mastitis. So many doctors gave me the side-eye, and I was starting to freak out. I decided to see a different OB, and he reccomended I give it a second try. He said it could very well help fix my cycle, and he also had an inkling that I was insulin-resistant. He sent me for the testing, and insulin-resistance was ruled out, but I decided to stay on the Met and see if it helped my bleeding. I started taking it at the beginning of August, and also started tracking my cycle on a regular calendar. I had tried opks, but never got a positive, so I decided to just assume I was ovulating in the same window that the opk instructions assumed. The opks told me to start testing at cd10, so I decided to start having sex on cd 11, and then aiming for every other day from there. I think it ended up being cd11,13,15,17,20,22, and 25. I really didn't think it would work, but I figured it couldn't hurt. On cd38 I was starting to get irritated, I wanted my period to show up already. The night before, DH went to work early while I was out, and for some reason, coming home to the empty house just sent me over the edge. I burst into tears, and texted him to tell him how upset I was. he jokingly said "Maybe you should take a pregnancy test." That pissed me off even more, but just to shut him up, I took one the next morning. I was pretty much standing there waiting for the negative, so I could throw it in the garbage, but lo and behold, there was a faint line! I ran down the hall screaming, waking DH up to come see the test. I absolutely couldn't believe it. So, that's my story. Charting definitely didn't work for me with all the irregular bleeding and crap I had going on. I have a strong feeling that the Metformin helped straighten out my cycle, and finally get me the BFP I had longed for.

Dead Nipple Strikes again....

2009-11-25T10:52:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's true. My left booby is infected yet again. It's itchy and sore and leaky and red and I just want to rip it off! Doc says it could be that all the breast changes from pregnancy caused it to flare up again. Now I have to take an insane amount of antibiotics until it is gone.
I am sooo worried that it won't go away, or that it will prevent me from breastfeeding. I'm trying to be positive, but it has been hard with how uncomfortable I am. On the plus side, tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I cannot wait to stuff my face. We are hosting, but my parents are handling most of the cooking at their place, and then bringing everything our way.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

NT Scan!!

2009-11-20T11:20:00.000-08:00

Our NT Scan yesterday was awesome! We got to watch our sweet, stubborn baby for a whole hour. She was all curled up( I think she was sleeping) and wouldn't turn the right way for the tech to get the measurements perfect, but she got what she needed. Everything looks normal, except apparently I have a wonky-shaped uterus. They described it sort of like a lima bean, and it may cause problems later, or it may not matter at all. They said it will raise my risk of the baby being breech, and possibly a c-section. That is my biggest fear, but I am going to just deal with it when the time comes. Here is a picture of our sweet little bean, who looks kind of X-Files-ish, but it's still amazing to me.

I'm Pregnant!!!

2009-11-10T06:01:00.000-08:00

Holy Balls people! It has been so freakin long since I updated this Blog. So much has happened... Long story short, I am knocked up! We found out on September 21st. After getting a BFN on that Thursday, I decided to wait til Tuesday to test again. When I came home from babysitting Sunday night, I randomly burst into tears and texted my hubby for support. He said I better take a pregnancy test, which at the time I thought was terribly insensitive. I got my BFP the next morning, and he is still gloating about his "intuition".

Fast forward! I am now almost 11 weeks, and we got to see the bean at 8 weeks, 4 days.. I told everyone on Halloween, using a homemade costume. It was amazing how few people 'got it'. 6 people out of like, 100 that I saw that day. (Pic above). They moved my due date to June 3rd, which seems SO far away, but we are thrilled. We already have our nursery all planned out, and can't wait to get started. We are going the natural route, with midwives at a birth center, and we are NOT finding out the sex. I will do my best to update everyone once a week or so. Thanks for reading!

The latest...

2009-06-09T18:45:00.000-07:00

So, not much on the TTC, obviously, since we are holding off. But, I figured I'd update this blog for those who don't follow my other one.

Anyway, I finished up my Provera, finished up my bleeding, and didn't quite know what to do next. I called my doc, and she said she wants me to have another ultrasound(the regular, AND dildo cam) to check on the cyst we found before, and make sure there aren't any new ones. That is all fine and dandy, but....then what? We made an appointment that same day to discuss the results and the next step in the plan.

Let me tell you. I cannot WAIT to sit and pick this woman's brain about TTC and weight. In my mind, I am so torn on what I want to hear. Part of me wants to hear that I have no business trying to get pregnant when I am nearly 100 lbs overweight. I want her to slap me in the face and tell me start running marathons. I want her to tell me to not call her until I weigh half what I do now.

Now, I know that won't happen, but I just plain don't want to hear that I should go ahead with TTC, the risks aren't that great, blah blah blah. I want to know that I am right for wanting to be as healthy as possible before becoming a 9-month leased apartment to another human being. I want to know that I am not alone in this feeling, and I know it will give me that extra push I need to lose the weight.

The only thing that saddens me about all of that, is that I know that it could take a year, maybe more to get to my goal weight, and then who knows how long after to get pregnant. I don't want to wait another year, or two, for a baby.
The appointment is next Tuesday. Updates to come...

Been doing some thinking....

2009-05-02T22:21:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do regarding TTC, and life in general. And, I have decided I want to put it on hold. We don't have a definite time frame, but we are thinking somewhere around a year, maybe more, maybe less. All this health stuff has me so stressed, and I have no idea how long it will take for it all to be sorted out. I don't know if I will need surgery, or what. I think I want to work on losing more weight, and saving money. My goal is to shed 80 lbs, and save 3,000 dollars, before we conceive. I'm not even sure when we will get back to actually trying, but right now, it just doesn't seem like the smartest thing to do.
I want to be healthy, in mind, body, wallet, lol. Ash fully supports this decision, and agrees that saving money would be a good idea. I am glad that I have such a caring and supportive husband, who is there no matter where the road may take us. It makes these hard times so much easier to bear.
I will still be blogging, and around GP, but maybe not as much. I want to start focusing on getting in shape, and getting my shit together, and that is hard to do when you are sitting on the computer every night, lol. Thank you to all my dear friends who read this blog, who are so sweet and supportive of me. I love you all!

Let the testing begin!

2009-04-12T18:23:00.000-07:00

I just started spotting a few hours ago, WOOT! Now, on with the testing. First up, tomorrow morning, Glucose, Thyroid, and Prolactin. Wednesday I go back for the cd3 testing of FSH. Friday will be my pelvic ultrasound, and oral surgery(yow!). Then I get a break until I have confirmed O with charting and OPKs, then my final blood draw to test my progesterone.

After all of that is done, hopefully we will have some insight as to why the Bleedfest took place, and what's next for TTC. I am hoping that everything comes out normally, and that I don't need any surgery or meds(obviously). I want to be able to give this a real shot, not just the 2-ish months I had to try around erratic bleeding.

It was a long, obnoxious wait to get my period back after stopping depo, and though we've only been married a year, it feels like it has been forever that we have been waiting to try. Now, with some weight loss and breast cancer scares out of the way, I feel like it's our time! I don't have any dreams of having a baby in a certain month, or year, or by the time I am a certain age. I am not THAT girl. But, I don't want to have to keep putting TTC on hold for whatever reason.

So, here's hoping everything goes well. I am really just praying I don't pass out from all the blood I have to give this week, combined with the drugs I will be on after surgery, lol.
I will keep you all updated.

Updates N'At

2009-03-28T12:53:00.000-07:00

Soooo...the bleedfest finally ended after 17 days. I kept my appointment for April 9th, and as of right now, it couldn't seem farther away, lol. However, I did get to go to the Oral Surgeon for my wisdom tooth evaluation. I have to have ALL FOUR pulled out, and Ash needs 3 pulled. It's gonna cost a good deal, but I need to get it over with now, cause they won't do it during pregnancy, and hell if I'm gonna wait another year-ish to get these suckers out.
I'm having more and more weird pregnancy dreams, and people keep telling me weird annoying things like "What if you're pregnant now? And it's just too soon to tell?" Why? Why do people say things like that? If anyone knew what was actually going on, they would know that there is NO WAY I am KU, especially following that 17-day massacre.
Anyway, I am trying to stay positive, and looking forward to talking to my new doc and getting some answers. More later.

What the hell is going on?

2009-03-21T13:24:00.000-07:00

I can't even stand it anymore. I have been bleeding for so many days, I have pretty much lost count. Today, I started passing scary clots, that are so big, I can FEEL them coming out. I called the doc and she insisted I take a pregnancy test. Oh yeah, that sounds fun. Lets rub it in some more. Not only am I bleeding to death, but now I have to take a pointless test and look at a pointless BFN. Thanks doc. Oh and of course the whole "Go to the Er if the bleeding is enough to go through a pad an hour, blah blah blah". I knew it, I knew that's what they would say. I just didn't want to have to pay 80 bucks to hear it. So, it remains, that I have to wait until April 9th to see a doc and find out what the hell is wrong with me.

Nipples and Charting and Weight Loss-Oh my!

2009-03-05T05:52:00.000-08:00

I just realized I haven't updated my booby status. As most of you know, the doc ruled out any cancer possibility, so YAY for that! As of right now, my nip is going back and forth between healed and not. The skin is still probably pretty damaged deep down, so it will most likely take a while before it's 100%. Til then, I will keep putting lotion on and hope for the best.
This is officially our first official cycle officially TTC. Officially. I started charting, mostly cause I want to confirm that I am ovulating, and I'm not sure if I will keep at it or not. Yes, it is way easier than I thought it would be to actually wake up and do the temping part. But, analyzing it is probably the hardest thing I've ever attempted, and if it weren't for the PDs, I would be 100% lost. Everyone has been laying off the pressure, as per my request,lol, so it is going well for now. Timing sex is sort of a pain, but we are handling it.
I am still working on the weight loss, and I'm almost halfway to my first goal of 65 lbs. I plan on trying WW in a couple of weeks, and seeing what that does to my results. I really need to start weight training more, and utilizing the 2nd gym membership that I have on the weekends. Right now I just work out at my work gym in the mornings during the week, doing 30-40 minutes of cardio. It works, but I need to work on my muscle tone and strength.
I will keep everyone posted on this cycle....here's hoping for good news!

I have WHAT on my nipple?

2009-01-30T23:14:00.000-08:00

The doc thinks I have a Yeast infection. On my nipple! And I have to put Monistat on it for two weeks. I am PRAYING that he is right. He still wants me to have a mammogram, which is Monday. I won't get the results til the 11th, but dear lord baby jesus I hope it's not cancer. On the other hand, I am thinking of suing, if it does turn out to be a y.i. The procedure my doc did was SO simple, and would have taken my previous doc all of 5 minutes to do when I saw her back in August. It could have saved me months of worry, pain, and maybe even damage done to my skin and breast tissue. I will post an update after my next appointment. Thanks for the well wishes ladies!

Doctor on Wednesday!

2009-01-24T12:12:00.000-08:00

If you are reading this, I have invited you to read my blog, which is now private. I have decided to start blogging about my *possible* breast cancer,and the treatment to follow. Right now I am just waiting to go back to the doc on Wednesday for a second opinion. I went over the summer/early fall last year, and was basically given the run around by some 20-something twit who insisted it was just dry skin. Let me tell you this, dry skin does not stick around for a year. All my research points to Paget's Disease, a rare type of breast cancer which causes the skin on the nipple dry up and itch like mad. Those are my symptoms, and I can't think of anything else it could be. I read that treatment is simple, and fatality is RARE. I shouldn't have to have any chemo or anything. At most there will be surgery to remove whatever lump they may find, and hopefully I will be good as new. Ash and my mom are both coming with me on Wednesday, and my boss is aware and totally supportive of whatever I need to do. I am trying to keep this quiet until I know more, so please no mention of this on GP. I will keep you all posted, and thank you all for your well wishes. Love, Adrienne

Waaay overdue for an update

2009-01-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

But....not much new! Christmas was ok. My family somehow managed to invite themselves over at the last minute, but we split the cooking duties, so it ended up alright. We had to postpone the big Honeymoon trip til Valentine's Day. I barely got any hours at work over the holidays, and there was just no way we could afford it right now. I am however, determined to not become one of those couples who puts it off, and puts it off, and before you know it, it has been 20 years and no honeymoon. We deserve this trip, and it WILL happen.
New Year's/Hubby's Bday was fun. We were very low key, babysitting until around 11, then coming home for champagne at midnight. We spent a lot of time over the holiday "break"(I use that term loosely, cause I still worked pretty much every day, lol) just hanging out, cuddling and being cheesy married people. I know we're still definitely in the "newlywed" category, but it's really starting to soak in now that we're married. It's been 7 months, and it's starting to feel more real. And, I love it.
On the weight loss front....yeah...I was sick for so long, that I skipped out on the gym for what, two weeks? Luckily, I've still held steady at my weight, and I don't feel like I've lost any muscle mass or strength. Now that I am back to 100%, I plan on hitting the gym tomorrow. I think I am going to aim for 3 nights a week, now that I am working the earlier shift at work. I also get my health benefits soon, and I read that I will get a discount at Weight Watchers. I always told myself I would never do anything like that, but never say never I guess. We will see, it certainly couldn't hurt.

I've been tagged!

2008-12-20T11:57:00.000-08:00

1. Link to the person who tagged you. Jessie tagged me!
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about you.
3. Tag up to 7 random people at the end, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

1.I really love "little things". Miniature versions of anything and everything.There is a really cool toy line in Japan that makes teeeny tiny food sets, and I collect them. My favorite is the itty bitty sushi set. They don't do anything, just sit there and look cute. Love em.

2. My husband and I have been together over two years, and we've never been to a movie theater together. We've gone to the drive-in twice, but have never gotten around to going to a movie at an actual theater. Weird, I know. We hope to pass that milestone on our honeymoon next week.

3. I am half Jamaican, but I don't smoke weed, or listen to reggae. Yeah, for some reason, most people can't believe that.

4.When I was 6, I lost 4 teeth over the course of two days while on a Cruise ship that passed through the Bermuda Triangle. What they say is true.

5. I became randomly allergic to cats and dogs in the 5th grade. I always had dogs growing up, and my friends all had pets as well, but for some reason, one day I was deathly allergic, and have been ever since. It sucks, cause I was a huge dog lover, and now I can't have them. I've always hated cats and thought they were evil. The biggest irony? I married one of the biggest animal lovers ever, and he wants to open a Grooming Salon one day.

6. I love my GP girlfriends SO much. Like, seriously, some of them are way cooler than anyone I know IRL. I wish we all lived closer together, cause I know we would all tear up the town!

7. I had a really hard time coming up with 7 facts about me that aren't totally lame. Really hard. Like took me 40 minutes hard. That is all.

I tag.....Lady? Spink? Have you guys been tagged? I suck at this game.

Creepos

2008-12-03T17:17:00.000-08:00

Yeah....so I really don't want to have to do this, but I think I may make my blog private. I'm starting to get really creeped out by the amount of people who read, follow, or comment on my blog when I have NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE AT ALL. EVER. It's really weird. I created my blog so that my buddies on GP could read up when I'm not around for a while, and to keep up with their lives. Not so creeps that I don't even talk to can come be creepy. Yes, I know, I linked it in my siggy. I know tons of strangers are probably reading it, if nothing but due to the easy access of it. I'm ok with that. I just don't want to see the evidence of creepos reading it. I realize I can't really avoid this, so pretty soon, I think I will just go ahead and make the thing private. Don't worry, those of you who actually know me, I will invite you to continue to be readers. Creepos-enjoy the creeping while you can.

Honeymoon!

2008-12-01T15:47:00.000-08:00

So, As some of you know, DH and I never made it to our honeymoon. We never really got to plan one at all really. We had originally scheduled it for October, when my week's vacation fell before I switched jobs. It turned out I had to use that week to train at my new job, so there wouldn't be a huge gap in my paychecks, and I wouldn't have to wait 3 weeks to start.

Well, we are making up for that now! We have decided to take a short belated honeymoon getaway for New Year's! DH's bday is New Year's eve, and that afternoon we will check in at a Bed and Breakfast about an hour away in the outskirts of Butler County. The place we found is very cute and secluded by woods and farm land. I was able to get us a deal when I asked about specials, and we are getting one night free! It's in the vicinity of a few spas, so we'll be getting a massage, catching a movie, and going to a nice dinner. Our room also has a hot tub, and I can't wait to soak and relax. I'm SO excited! Here is a pic of the dress I am buying for our big New Year's dinner.

Feel the burn

2008-11-25T04:32:00.000-08:00

So, as many of you know, I am trying to lose weight for general purpose, as well as for TTC. Well I was super proud of myself yesterday, cause I got up at 6:45 am, and was at the gym by 7:30! I was there before my fanatic coworker, lol. I walked on the treadmill for an hour, and really pushed myself. It felt great. I hope to go in the morning Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, and then go to my other gym with DH in the evening on Tuesday and Thursday. I am halfway to my goal of losing 30 lbs by February! If I can do that, I'll be ready to start TTC, and hopefully by then my cycle will be back to normal. I'm still at cycle day 40something but I know my period is on its way. I started microspotting yesterday, so I think by tomorrow it should be close to full force. On the Thanksgiving front, DH and I waited too long to decide to volunteer at a soup kitchen, cause most places are already booked up. DH still has a few more calls to make today, but if we still haven't found anything, I guess we'll just end up staying home. If the weather isn't too bad, we will probably just have FIL over, and I will have to pull some kind of dinner out of my ass. DH said not to feel bad, we can probably find somewhere to volunteer for Xmas Eve if we start looking now. Who knew it was so hard to be charitable?

I've been tagged!

2008-11-22T18:53:00.000-08:00

I was tagged by Jessie!
Describe each in one word:

Where is your cell phone? desk
Where is your significant other? Potty
Hair color? Blech
Your mother? Annoying
Your father? Superman
Your favorite thing? Music
Your dream last night? Forget
Your dream/goal? Baby!
The room you’re in? Office
Your hobby? Nesting
Your fear? Millipedes
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Mommylandx2
Where were you last night? home
What you’re not? Tired
One of your wish-list items? Phone
Where you grew up? Pittsburgh
The last thing you did? Coffee
What are you wearing? Sweats
Your TV? Off
Your pet? Swimming
Your computer? OLD
Your mood? Nervous
Missing someone? Colin
Favorite store? Barnes and Noble
Our summer? Amazing
Love someone? Husband!
Your favorite color? Purple
When is the last time you laughed? Earlier
Last time you cried? Yesterday
Um...I don't know who to tag. Boo.

Thanks for giving

2008-11-22T17:13:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's Thanksgiving already. And I am not feelin the whole family dinner deal. I'm just not in the mood for my mom's attitude or her 5 cats twice in a matter of one month. Not to mention the fact that my brother moved back home, and I'm not getting much closer to wanting anything to do with him yet. Ah, Family Dysfunction at its finest. So, what will I be doing you ask? Hubby and I have decided to spend the evening at a homeless shelter and serve dinner to the needy. I have been wanting to do that for YEARS but I always felt guilty about not coming to dinner with the family. This year? Not so much. Besides, now that I'm married, I want to create my own family traditions, and I can't think of a better one for us. Peace and Gravy Lumps.
P.S. My husband's mustache is growing back at lightning speed. Kitt would love it.